Sep 4, 2008

Phase III


Finally my Dad didn't have to stay at the hospital. His Myeloma is Phase III meaning the cancer is developped and that there is a tumor. Several bones are touched but not all. Also his overal health is quite good. His doctor says it is a slow developping cancer. He will have a catheter next week. Next step is starting the treatment with a combination of medications and chemiotherapy. And the autogreffe after.

This is such a nightmare. I realized I loved my Dad even more than I thought because when I think about him and his cancer, I don't think about me being deprived of his presence, I think about his suffering, about how he must feel right now, how he must be afraid and all.

I wanted to move back to France but this is materially and financially impossible. For now. I am drowning myself into work, trying to take my mind out of it, but I just can't. I just want to hug my Dad. I just want to be with him and my family. I just want to fuck away this asshole of cancer and make it disappear...

9 comments:

Cath said...

Many big hugs for you, Hyena.

Healing thoughts and energy for your dad.

AngelHeartBeads said...

I'm so sorry about your Dad. Your posts about him have made me cry. I can not even imagine how horrifically hard this is for you to be so far away. You are definitely in my thoughts, as well as your Dad.

Anonymous said...

Sending hugs, prayers, good thoughts, healing energy, all the love of the world your and father's way.....

It will be so good for him to see you. I'm glad you are going.

With much love sweetie,
Kelli.

Chris Stone said...

oh dear. I'm sorry to hear this Hyena! ((hugs!))

Inklings and Imprints said...

I am very sorry for what your family is going through. I know it is very hard. Much love and strength to you.

Gina - RoseThistleArtworks said...

I didn't see this before. The picture of you two is so beautiful. Your strength, heart and concern show what a wonderful dad he is. Your family is in my prayers.

Hugs to you.
Gina

Recycled By Hyena said...

This is not me, Gina, this is my Mom. :)

I didn't thank you all for your message because I was in such a shock at the time. Your support really helped me. :)

Gina - RoseThistleArtworks said...

WOW! I just kind of glossed over the picture because I thought that was you. Sorry about that. She's really pretty. I know you said you don't get along so well at times, but if what they say is true, you should age really, really well. Wow.

Recycled By Hyena said...

And still she is not her best on that picture with the wind in the face and all!

http://www.flickr.com/photos/mllehyena/1602842162/in/set-72157600189301314/

She used to be really beautiful. Here is a picture from 10 years ago. But I think we have good genes in the family about that, we are all aging quite well!