Jul 18, 2009

Birthday: the weirdest mood



I am 34 today. 
Mamie Adèle died last week (my paternal grandmother).
All my family called me today to wish me an happy birthday.
I am in love. I am sad. I have a new friend.
I am still scared of death like I was as a little girl. Scared of loosing. Scared of the stopping of everything.
Nothingness.

Scared of the dark miror. Time: will never come back but will always be.

So I worked. A lot. Here it is.

Now I will go get myself a very nice bottle of burgundy. To celebrate all the emotions.

Because all these scares are good ones. Because I am alive.