Jul 18, 2009

Birthday: the weirdest mood



I am 34 today. 
Mamie Adèle died last week (my paternal grandmother).
All my family called me today to wish me an happy birthday.
I am in love. I am sad. I have a new friend.
I am still scared of death like I was as a little girl. Scared of loosing. Scared of the stopping of everything.
Nothingness.

Scared of the dark miror. Time: will never come back but will always be.

So I worked. A lot. Here it is.

Now I will go get myself a very nice bottle of burgundy. To celebrate all the emotions.

Because all these scares are good ones. Because I am alive.

6 comments:

Saltygal said...

Happy Birthday Cecile! Birthdays are milestones and happy occasions. Even if it is an ordinary day we can't help but reflect on the past and wonder about the future.I know you've been through a lot this past year, but with all the sad occasions you still had much love from family and friends. Your new work is beautiful and just keeps getting better and better. A toast to go along with your wine
Happy birthday to you
And many to be,
With friends that are true
As you are to me

Studio Lyon said...

"Because all these scares are good ones. Because I am alive."

Those sentences really struck me. It was something that was good for me to hear right now. Thanks for posting it! :)

Happy Birthday!

SugarCain said...

Great post, Cecile. I loved reading what you wrote, and your new collection is stunning.

Happy birthday. And many more.

Recycled By Hyena said...

Thank you so much everyone. Karen, you made me cry. Thank you so much for being my long time friend.

Studio Lyon, I am so happy my words can touch and help someone.

Angelique, do you know? Our conversation from this morning on twitter about me not being happy with my tone in english? It prompted me to write this post, not caring about anything other than my writing and my thinking.
So thank you. :)

Cris Melo, of MeloEarth.com said...

Oh, what a beautiful post. I am sorry for your loss and wishing you a happy b-day too! Sometimes life is just like that. But that's the beauty. Ask me tomorrow and I might say it's all screwed up and there's no hope.

You create beauty, THAT I know.

sallymandy said...

Hi there! I just visited your Etsy store and fell absolutely in love with your work. !!! So cool, I see many things that are sort of okay but your ethic and aesthetic are just beautiful. So I'm glad to have found your blog, and wish you a very happy birthday, though now it's been a couple of weeks. Best wishes to you...

Sallymandy
The Blue Kimono